Open the door Chris. Step outside. Breathe. Think. What do we do now? I get into my car and drive.
When will it end? How could I be so callous? How could I ever think such things? She has trusted us to be there and protect her. Throw yourself into your work. Find birds. Don't think about it.
Somewhere in between, my eyes get all blurry. A pause in life. Between the trails and work space, she brightened our day with purrs and cuddles. She helped us cook dinner. She waited by the door when we got home. And she always reminded us when it was time for a little snack.
She is,for us, the purest form of love and trust that we have experienced as a family.
No amount of birding can fill up this void in my heart. We said our goodbyes. The worst word in this world. But we were there with her as we said our final words.
It is said that if a goodbye hurts, it is because we loved a lot, and that it is a price worth paying.
We will always love you Cassie. You made our lives so much richer for being here.