|The Fern Garden from my dining room window|
|A clearer view of the Fern Garden at El Presidio|
|This is also a place where the cats like to gather for their daily catnap.|
After a difficult and challenging week at work, the rainy weekend is a welcome time to reflect. I have to remember that there is only so much I can do in my personal and professional life and I can't control the way things unfold. When things go wrong, I want to fix them for the better, but most of the time they are outside my realm of control. I see the suffering/anger that goes on and I feel helpless. You're probably wondering what I'm rambling on about......well let me just put it in very general terms. With friends and family, I wish I could make all relationship issues in marriages or friendships better. At work, I know my product is solid gold, but my OCD nature tends to get the best of me with other people and my German side snaps in anger. I'm a perfectionist and it will be the death of me. I have gotten better over the years by letting things go, but my mind still tells me whether something is right or wrong.....it's the pulling back part that takes A LOT of practice, but I do believe I'm getting better with age. There are still those moments. It's not that I don't care; it's just that I can't care without it biting me in the butt later on. So on this rainy day in Tucson, I think of all the things I can do in the garden......a calming center for me. If you are beginning to garden or have gardened, I like to think of our art as a meditation for soother thoughts. It's like exercise for many people and a way to get rid of the stress and anxiety. Plus there is nothing like a fresh Spring rain for our desert plants.
|Aurora and Cassie|